I don’t know what to think right now… well actually I do and I’m not doing anything about it. I should be studying for my math test but instead I feel emotionally drained out and feel like crying. It hurts and I hate it its not over yet but it feels like it already is. Is that what I want is that what you want? I don’t know we say we are honest with each other but are we really… who are we fooling us, everyone else, me, you , who… What if we aren’t compatible with each other and just hurt each other in the near future I know I’m not suppose to think negatively but what am i suppose to do. This should be much easier and you compared me to her. The real reason is that I’m scared that we aren’t meant to be together but who am I to say that. I wish I could do something about it but can I or am I just holding back. If we break up will I fight to get us back together, are you really curious about other people or do i need to give you more affection. Do I need to try more on my relationship, I probably do if I want it to work. Do I just give up without trying, I don’t know or do I. I hate saying I don’t know. All I want to do is scream my lungs out. I really am sorry Love and I don’t want to loose you at all I really want to fix our relationship. I really am sorry for everything I’ve said to you these past two days and I really hope we can move on for real not just say everything is okay when it isn’t. Te Amo para siempre y espero que si sea para siempre.